Sad drabbles

[cala_jane]

This is '5 stages of grief' drabble serie.
Hope you like them.


Denial.
It's the beginning of everything
You learn about death of your beloved and your world crushes
No matter how many people tell you that the one you love is dead, you refuse to believe in it.
You try to find the way out.
Any circumstance that could proove that everybody is wrong.
You fool yourself with visions of dead standing next to you.
Telling you 'everthing is okay'
You fight with the thought that it could be the end.
When Illyria showed up in the alley and told them that Wesley was no longer alive
Angel did all this.

Anger.
That usually comes after denial.
You tend to hit things and people, so that they could be as unhappy as you are.
You hope that it'll make things better or at least it will help you forget.
How much you're hurt.
Sometimes you cry.
Sob so hard you cannot see what's around you.
You can hug the body of the one you lost so tight, your arms start to hurt.
You can scream with pain, cursing every diety you can come up with.
When he came to Veil's and saw Wes' body
Angel did all this

Bargaining.
That's the next step.
You offer everything you have and everything what you don't have.
Those who has been cursed by you are now worshipped.
They are promised everything for the life of your beloved.
And when it doesn't work, you decide to tear the soul of the one you love from wherever it is.
You offer to give your own soul instead
Or souls of others.
It doesn't really matter for you, as long as it could work.
You are desperate to make a deal.
When he stopped sobbing Angel tried everything to get Wesley back.

Depression.
Gets to everyone.
You feel empty.
You stare into darkness
You feel cold, no matter how hot is outside.
You don't see the sense in your life.
You walk from room to room, touching things that belonged to the one that is no longer with you.
You watch the rain outside the window and see the face of your beloved instead.
You feel alone in the crowd.
You don't hear words that are spoken to you.
After the final battle
When there was no more tears in his eyes
When Wesley's funeral ended
Angel did all this.

Acceptance
This comes with time
One day you discover that you're able to smile
One day you discover that you remember how to laugh
One day you suddenly smile on the memory of the one you lost
you realise that pain is gone
That tears no longer fall down your cheek
With all the time that was given to him
With eternity of days
Angel didn't do any of this.


Thank you for reading. Lets hope it'll be the last post today.